Confessions to my self!

Time waits for no man. We spend every passing second of our lives journey on earth either by laughing our heart out or weeping inside for some reason or the other. Your mind is constantly making some decision or the other about your current state of mind. It is always asking your self “Do i relish this very moment that just passed away or should i try to forget and bury it deep somewhere inside us?” You end up balancing the whole thing in your thoughts convincing yourself you are happy at this very moment and you say it loud to your heart yes i am happy and sometimes you feel your heart is crying and you feel you lost that moment just a second ago. You try hard to redeem it back and live it in an alternative way but in vain. It occurs in the blink of an eye. The choices…the decisions…the interpretations…perception..a memory…everything.

Scary realization of how fast it happens is a bit bewildering. Every second our minds are asking questions to ourselves and it will help us realize whether we are happy or balanced or wrecked or whatever we are because happiness and sadness comes from within us. It is bound to the choice which we have to make but the right one. There are very few external inevitable factors which can bring you down. Most of the time its u and u only. Cultivation of happy moments is an art…sometimes you are there..sometimes you lose it. But eventually you reach a point where you realize that the one and only entity that brings happiness is something deep down inside you and you eventually learn to cultivate and maintain it. You dont want to end up rest of your lives trying to delete every second of your past Do you? It is all about finding the seed of your happiness and cultivating it to something solid and true. Give it a short. Let it be ones best short. The sheer knowledge of that entity itself is a pleasure. Even the pain feels sweet like a cherry. You learn to live through every pain once you understand what is the most important thing. Nobody can get over any pain..Its always learning to deal and live with it.

Its never bed roses for any one,is it?. We are not living in an illusion. Its very real and raw to the core. Let me cultivate my precious seed of happiness and let me find the seed of my illbeing inside me and confess to my soul why sometimes in life I deviate from righteousness and virtue. I thrive to be no saint but i did learn to confess to my soul.

Beautiful melody by Gosh Groban

My Confession

I have been blind, unwilling to see
The true love you’re giving.
I have ignored every blessing.
I’m on my knees confessing
That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can’t hideNow hear my confession.
I have been wrong about you.
Thought I was strong without you.
For so long nothing could move me.
For so long nothing could change me.
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can’t hide
Now hear my confession.
You are the air that I breathe.
You’re the ground beneath my feet.
When did I stop believing?
Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart Falling into place.
I can’t hideNow hear my confession.
I can’t hideNow hear my confession.
Hear my confession

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